The knife is not just for salad (Edward)

[isabella marie easton]

The kids were out for some snack before the dinner would be prepared, an idea by Isabella since she also wanted to set up everything and else. She had to shove Nic out of the house last since she knew very well that Nicolas is there to protect his mother and she didn't want her boy to stand nearby as if he was a guard 24/7. She wanted him to have at least a little bit fun so then he decided why not. Now with the house quiet, she decided it was time to clean the house (even after the mess left by her two girls but hey girls are girls but mostly from her son-men...), and at the same time prepare dinner without hearing "Mom" or "Mommy!" from the kids like last time. She turned on her stereo, popped in AC/DC and played "Highway to Hell" while started on the salad. First, she took out lettuce, tomatos, a large kitchen knife to use for the slicing, and a chopping board. Next Isabella laid out the board, placed the tomatoes at the side and then began chopping one of them while at the same time, hummed along to the song.

[edward]

Finally having once parlty seen Bella at the household he was taken aback at how much she had changed, and in actual fact grown up, he didn't know whether to believe such stories about Bella and her supposidly three children. Yet, mustering what possible courag he had, it was time to pay Bella a offical visit after many years, what he would see, and hear would be a shock he knew that, but this was after all what he had wanted for her. Yet he culdnot help but feel the depth of guilt buried within him, he had let Bella go so easily, yet, this was how it was supposed to be he would make no attempt to woo her back once again, for he knew Bella would be most..angered by him, but he would tryto at least reain friends perhaps, if he managed to put the past behind him, as well as his emotions for her, but it would be no easy feat.

Leaving the house for perhaps the first time offically, Edward made his way towards his neglected silver volvo, and even after somany years, the vehical was still going strong. Thrusting the egine into gear having heard the liverly thrum of the engine he pulled away, his pale hands clutched the steering wheel tightly yetnotquite enough to break it. It took him moments before he pulled up outside Bella's house, which looked starkingly different, catchign her scent in an instant he followed it, but it did not lead to the Swan's rescidence, but to the house beside it. Wth a small frown he climbed out locking his car, there was no beings in view, and no othe present scents yet traces of others remained. Mving gracefully to wards the house he paused, was this such a good idea? it had ben years after all? Pressing his lips tightly together he extended his hand and Knocked on the door awaiting a reply, Bella was home that he knew for a fact, Perhaps slightly rudely of him he opend the door perhaps Bella had not heard him for she seemed engrossed in whatever it was she was doing.

Inhaling a deep breath he held it, her scent hit him once again, he had very nerly forgotten such a scent. Clearing his throat softly he knocked on the kitcen door, She was most certainly taller, although pehaps only sightly. His eyes faintly swpet over the being before him, her hair remained the same colour, her scent had not changed nor had her small clumsy movements. Cumsyness was not something a being could simly grow out of.

[isabella marie easton]

Instantly the moment she had chopped up the tomato, she looked up to the direction of the kitchen door. The bar area where she is chopping up at, is at the left and if you walk on you can lead straight to the door. It was a bit different than of her father's house but at the same time it was easy to clean up the kitchen without people bardging in. She paused just to sigh. "Come in!" she yelled out as she now resumed back to chopping up the tomatoes. Once she had one done she tossed the chopped up tomatoes into the bowl then began with another. "Door's open!" If its Nic, she would so tell her son to go back out. If its someone else, then maybe she would let them in. Maybe its the delivery guy. After all she had ordered six more plates since some people had broken the plates she had. They were not cheap. Next, she tossed the tomatoes in the bowl and grabbed one set of lettuce and set it before her. The song changed to "Hells Bells." She smiled. Now this is music.

[edward]

Having been asked to come in, it was clear Bella hadn't anticipated a visitor. None the less he did as he was allowed and he currently now stood within the kitchen his gaze fickered over the place before landing back to Bella, as she begun to chop whatever it was. Music filled the kitchen, music in witch casued a small frown on Edward's face, he had yet to speak with her yet it was clear to him she had changed great deal already, did he dare speak to her? the thought that dwindled on his mind was the question. What if he didn't like the new Bella? could he remain friends with her? He didn't know, there was only one way in whichto find out, collecting what small courage he had left Edward sighed softly, world war three would brek out. This was Bella after all. "Hello Bella." He said his tone was soft and elegant yet sheeish all the while, the faint tinge of a velvet texture lingured with his words.

[isabella marie easton]

Isabella stopped chopping just for a second only to walk over to the stereo and turned off the music. Whenever she was ready to talk to someone she would turn off the stereo. Besides it was Nic's stereo but being his mom she was allowed to listen to it. After all she bought it for him. She walked back over to the counter, started to chop up the lettace and before she was to toss it into the bowl, she heard a sigh and then his voice. "Shit," she whispered. She should have checked who was at the door. Like she knew it was him but since he allowed himself in, she would just let that slide. However, why did he decide to come? What about? So, then, she stopped and that was when she looked up and gazed right into Edward's eyes. Normally she would have fainted or cry with happy tears and hug him or what not but not this time. Nope there was nothing but hurt and anger in her eyes and the look she's giving him is not with any emotion. "You know, you seriously must be crazy to even think of coming over here and have the nerve to do so," she replied. "What do you want, Edward?" At that time, she set aside the lettace but still held onto the knife while the other hand was on the cutting board.

[edward]

Shit, Came the sudden cuss from Bella's lips, in truth he hadn't expected to hear such words come from her mouth, a once delicate mouth that was afraid at times to say the wrong thing. Edward had never been a huge fan of cussing, if he did cuss then he would do it politely as possible none the less he waited as Bella then turned around to confront him, he was for a moment taken hugely aback by her appearance, it was not one he remembered, and certainly not one he was used too. Perhaps it would take time? Pressing his lips tightly together, he saw the look in her eyes one of pure hatred and anger,and he could hardly blame her, ever since leaving her all those years ago he had put her through so much torment, and in turn he had carried the guilt.

You know, you seriously must be crazy to even think of coming over here and have the nerve to do so, What do you want, Edward? and so it begun. He listened patiently although he was not in the least be scared,guilty? yes hurt? yes he would never forgive himself but Bella got and sill had all that she deserved, and apparently children were one of them. Edward shook his head softy and spoke his tone calm and low "I thought it best we talk..face to face, if you do not wish to speak with me, or whatever it is, then tel me now and I shall leave and not bother you again. I understand what i have caused you, yet look at you now? you have a family, which was how it was supposed to be..and I am happy for you. What I did Bella..was unforgivable I know this, and nor do I ask of your forgiveness, I just wish for us to talk, or in your case yell, for it is all that I deserve and more at any rate" He stated, his tone remained simple, low and held a tinge of a velvet texture that oozed from his perfect pale lips and entwined within his apology.

[isabella marie easton]

The mother of three listened to his talk and for one second she had thought it was a bit wrong to just be like that but on the other hand, he caused her nothing but heartbreak. And for one he thought it was easy? It wasn't even when she was left behind with three young children to raise by herself. She had no man, not one help despite from her stepfather, to help her raise the children. She did it by herself. Whatever she had left in her, she did it but still it couldn't erase the fact that she had lost two men she had loved so much-first Edward when he had gone and left her behind, and then Tristen. However, unlike Edward, Tristen died doing what he had tried to do-save lives. Did Edward do that? No. Still angry, Isabella took the knife and threw it, hearing the knife slam against the tile of the floor. "Talk? You want us to talk? Oh okay we'll talk. Sure. You know what? If you didn't want to talk to me why the hell you came into here? Oh that's right you thought I would run into your arms is that it? Come on, Edward I know you. You didn't come for just to talk." She walked over to the knife and picked it up then slammed it into the kitchen drawer following by walking back to the salad and started to toss it up with two spoons that she had grabbed out from the dresser next. "But okay let's talk. You don't understand nothing. You don't understand the hurt you've caused me. I waited for you for a YEAR. Got that? A year. Where the hell were you when I needed you? That's right you weren't there. You left me. You think it was peachy keen when I had a family?" she laughed next since well she had thought it was completely funny. "Oh you are SO wrong. Listen, Mr. 'oh I want you to have a normal life so this is the last time you will see me but then again here I am wanting to just tell you you've got everything you wanted', I got some newsflash for you. I lost my husband after he died and guess what? It was HELL raising three young children by myself. And no I didn't get all I wanted. If I wanted that, Tristen would be alive. So. Do you see him? No. Where is he? Six feet under and yet when he was alive, he understood everything. He loved me. He was there for me. He never left me even after he promised he would always be there for me. You did! How the hell you could do that to me?" Isabella now stopped tossing up the salad, walked up to him, and punched him in the jaw. Sure it won't remain there and he won't feel it but she needed to do that. After all he had caused her nothing but pain. She'd slap him but that's over too dramatic.

[edward]

The sudden clatter of the knife upon the floor did no stir him, Edward remained emotionless for the most part as he listened, he deserved everything Bella would through at him and more. Talk? You want us to talk? Oh okay we'll talk. Sure. You know what? If you didn't want to talk to me why the hell you came into here? Oh that's right you thought I would run into your arms is that it? Come on, Edward I know you. You didn't come for just to talk. At her comment he shook his head, that was all lies he had not expected Bella to run back into his arms he would perhaps be worried if she did. "Then you don't know me at all, I did not expect you to run back to me, In truth I wished to see you again close up, I wanted to see if what I have heard is true, and I did in fact wish to talk to you." He stated his tone was of sheer truth, he could lie at times, but Bella would always know.

But okay let's talk. You don't understand nothing. You don't understand the hurt you've caused me. I waited for you for a YEAR. Got that? A year. Where the hell were you when I needed you? That's right you weren't there. You left me. You think it was peachy keen when I had a family? Bella continued and once again he listened, she was right of course. "Your right, I don't understand, So help me to understand, and I'll have you know I was in the same state..I tracked Victoria..she's still out there Bella, I checked up on you..now and then via Alice to see how you were I saw the amount of pain you suffered grieving over your late husband, I thought about returning to help you, but it would of been wrong of me, Look at me Bella I'm 17 years of age, what good could I of possibly been? what does it even matter now?" He questioned his tone sharp and swift.

Oh you are SO wrong. Listen, Mr. 'oh I want you to have a normal life so this is the last time you will see me but then again here I am wanting to just tell you you've got everything you wanted', I got some newsflash for you. I lost my husband after he died and guess what? It was HELL raising three young children by myself. And no I didn't get all I wanted. If I wanted that, Tristan would be alive. So. Do you see him? No. Where is he? Six feet under and yet when he was alive, he understood everything. He loved me. He was there for me. He never left me even after he promised he would always be there for me. You did! How the hell you could do that to me? Pausing he listened and pressed his lips together in a tight fashion Just then however Bella marched over to wards him and drew back her fist before it collided then with his jaw, of course the effect was really rather pointless he felt only a small twinge of pressure, Bella's hand would only pay for the damage later.

At any rate his anger boiled slightly, yes he deserved such things,he knew that, but this wasn't just about her, he had suffered just as much, perhaps not as much but he had felt the same pain day after day, month after month. "I did not say life was easy Bella. He muttered his tone cold. "It never will be, and never has been. I left Because at the time it was the right ting to do, had I'd of stayed your death would of come sooner then either of us anticipated, I left and you moved on, you married, you settled down. Dammit Bella! that's the way it's supposed to be!." he cussed sharply. "When I left you that say in the words I ran, what I said, they were lies Bella, in attempts to make you believe me, ad by god they worked, do you think I wanted any of this? You raised children on your own, and look how they have turned out, I doubt you could of wished for anything better, all those months and years Iran, evading my family, evading everyone. You were all I could think about all that I saw, I wished every day that I could simply just curl up and die, I deserve no better" He half yelled his eyes burned with forgotten passion.

"By god I wish I could die now,what does it matter now? you have a life, Yet dammit Bella I still love you, I have never stopped loving you since the very first day I set eyes upon you." He stated flatly as he gazed to Bella silently then, his chest rose and fell sharply.

[isabella marie easton]

Isabella glared at him as he had talked and first she sighed while turning her head away. So maybe he wasn't here to do that but still. She turned to look at him next. "Okay maybe that was true but is that only it? Just to see if it was true and only to talk to me? Why couldn't you when I had my housewarming party? Huh? Why just wait until now? Oh that's right you wanted to wait until the perfect moment. Well, here I am Edward." She remembered everything Willow had talked to her about even the fact Edward was being so emo though she is going to bring up that. "Cut the crap and the emo shit, alright? You stalked me through out these years and you never bother of just come by and apologize? You wait until now? Fuck, Edward! Why the hell did you wait until now?" Isabella paused to allow her chest to rise up and down and took some time to lent out her breath. Once she calmed down she shook her head. "You know what, forget it. Just forget it." For some strange reason the way he argued back to her, had her realize it sort of turned her on. Instantly without thinking, Isabella quickly walked over to him, slammed him against the wall, placed her hands quickly on his cheeks leaned forward and locked her lips against his in a heated passionate kiss while with her eyes closed. Oh screw it why not.

[edward]

Okay maybe that was true but is that only it? Just to see if it was true and only to talk to me? Why couldn't you when I had my housewarming party? Huh? Why just wait until now? Oh that's right you wanted to wait until the perfect moment. Well, here I am Edward. Bella demanded, and Edward looked away slightly irritated at her demands, was there no logic? Turning back to look to her, he met her gaze squarely on. "What? and have Me show up and ruin your party? No Bella. I wouldn't do that, besides Jasper filled me in. The perfect moment? hardly, I thought it best to have this conversation away from your children and others, I knew you being stubborn as you have always been would react the way you have, which I don't blame you for acting as you did in the slightest." he commented curtly.

Cut the crap and the emo shit, alright? You stalked me through out these years and you never bother of just come by and apologize? You wait until now? Fuck, Edward! Why the hell did you wait until now? Bella demanded once again and Edward shook his head "And if I came by and apologized, would you honestly forgive me then? any different then you do now?" He questioned Folding his arms across his stone chest he looked to her, his own tone just as demanding, over the years they had been apart he too had changed, his stubbornness for one, had most certainly been an issue. Even now, not often had he answered back to Bella till today. Waiting patiently he watched as Bella controlled her breathing, her chest rose and fell heavy matching his own chest movements, although no oxygen circulated.

You know what, forget it. Just forget it. Bella stated, It was easier said then done. However in the next moment what happened had not been something he had expected, in a matter of moment Bella crossed the room and his back collided with the wall creating a remotely small dent. Bella's hands lifted and pressed to his cheeks, but that was not what surprised him the most, it was the part when Bella's lips connected with his own, fire ignited in moments, forgotten passion that had stayed hidden away for all this time, he did not hesitate, did not even think as his hand's lifted to wrap around Bella, her body was no different from what he remember be it slightly less fragile then before. With his eyes closed he pressed his lips in return to Bella's the kiss fell into a passionate fury as he pushed of the wall he pressed her body closer against his own, thankful height was still in his favor.

[isabella marie easton]

Instantly she felt his hands wrapped around her body and her hands still on his cheeks. She had never thought that this would come to this since after all one, she had moved on and two, she was expecting to just have a night of just nothing but making the salad and head to the phone to see if she had any messages then so on and so forth. Instantly she thought of her husband. Would Tristen be angry? It had been years since his death though but still. She wanted to pull away but Edward's hands now wrapped around her. Oh well. She just couldn't help it. Isabella allowed him to kiss back but now she lowered her hands to his shoulders and then to his back while their bodies pressed against each other. She led them towards the counter but in a fast motion and slammed against the counter, the bowl shook a little behind her, and while she matched his kiss, she reached up to his head and ran her fingers through his hair. It wasn't like with Tristen, since one, they were somewhere else and two, well the kiss is different. Somehow something had triggered her to do it. Maybe somewhat she still loved him back? She wasn't sure but it sure was a turn on.

[edward]

No matter what his mind screamed at him, this was not at all as he had planned, this was so wrong, yet at the same time it felt so very right. With his strong muscular arms wrapped around Bella's body he held her close, his lips moved against Bella's endlessly, he had missed such a sensation over the years, his head buzzed pleasantly. In th next moment Bella's hands dropped to his shoulder, the heat from her hands flared against his marble cold skin and he shuddered pleasantly. Having pushed her back, Bella too moved back causing her to hit the kitchen counter, a few cups fell and the sound of a smash rang faintly in his ears yet none of that mattered, Moving his lips away from hers, his lips moved to her neck, there he was struck by the sudden scent, the scent he had always loved. Closing his eyes awing at his self restraint still he pressed delicate and feather like kisses to her neck.

Moments passed yet as the did realization hit. Opening his eyes,he brushed the last few kisses to Bella's lips and backed away looking to the side had he, had a heart it would be racing, his chest rose and fell sharply. He shook his head and inhaled a deep breath. "This is wrong, this shouldn't happen, perhaps I should go..I'll be around." he murmured and turned ready to leave, after all logically Bella was a mother now, and he was physically still a child. Was it best to continue? to grow so close to her that he may once again never be able to let her go?. One way or another Edward new for a fact he still loved Bella.

[isabella marie easton]

Isabella was caught up in everything especially when Edward had kissed on her neck with delicate and featherlike kisses against the side of her neck that she had not realized what was happening. What caused it to go to here? Oh yeah that's right. But she couldn't help it and she is sure Edward felt the same way. When he had given her some last few kisses and parted from him and spoke, she listened throughout his last remarks. Oh no she's not going to let him go like that. Once he's here he's here. And she is sure if Tristen was to look down right now he'd probably say it. But half of her did agree with him, it was wrong. Besides she's a widow now and sure the death had happened just a few years ago, but she shouldn't do this to Tristen. Would he be offended? She hopes not. However, he probably had been watching everything and was probably shell shocked that his sweet Bella would do something like that. Her hand throbbed from having punched Edward, and it was better than slapping because that would've hurt even more. It wasn't the first time she had punched something as hard as stone. Back in college, she had punched the wall but with the other hand and that had hurt the most. She'll be fine, Is isn't a delicate girl like before anyway. Just as he was to turn, she reached over, grabbed him by the arm and yanked him towards her, something Tristen had done once. Oh yeah that did remind her of it. So she decided to do what he had done. With a lustful look in her eye, Isabella whispered a simple, "please?" though the passion that she had for him did peak out a little. Just a little. It is all up to Ed now.

[edward]

Edward had been about to leave, before the sudden flare of heat on his arm casued him to stop and turn round. Bella gripped his arm as tight as she physically he could at any rate. Lifting his gaze to meet hers, he was quite surprised by the amount of lust and passion that shon in her eyes. His own he was perhaps sure displayed the same emotion, all forgotten and now recently resurfaced. Pressing his lips together tightly he looked down to Bella's hand around his arm, what left her lips sounded like the old Bella he used to know, helpless and delicate. please? she whispered to him. He felt his insides twitch with anticipation, at least what was left of his insides his dead heart he could of sworn beat then. Moving to ward Bella he took her hand in his own and sighed softly, as much as he wished he could in fact give into her pleads he had to remain as level headed as possible. "And what would happen after Bella, do we go about pretending nothings change? Bella.." he paused and shook his head "As much as I wish to Bella, as much as I want to, I will hurt you it's been too long, i'm barely coping being here now, everything about you..is my weakness." he admitted slightly, and brought her hand to his lips, as he brushed his cold lips against her hand.

[isabella marie easton]

He was right. She wouldn't want him to hurt her and she really hated how the old Bella resurfaced. Usually she wouldn't allow someone to just go ahead to do that and have sex with her. In fact the last time she had sex was with her husband and that was a long time ago. But now since Edward spoke, she sighed. "I understand. You don't have to." But thank god he said no. Besides what if her kids walked in? "And what if I say we don't need to pretend? Look if we're not meant to be boyfriend and girlfriend anymore, its fine with me but its not like I'm gonna shut you out of my life. You came into my life, you will remain in my life." She kissed his hand that held onto hers back. "Always." Sure she was kind of hurt but then again she blamed the stupid lust that came to her. Ugh why did she have to allow it? "I know that also, Edward. After all," she added with another roll of her eye, "I am the lamb." Sighing, she pulled away from him and walked over to the cups that fell to the ground. Isabella knelt down in front of the cups first to observe the damage. Its not worse to where if she picks up the pieces she would get cut just only cracked into three sections for one cup while the other has a crack in the side. Carefully, she picked up the broken pieces and tossed them into the trashcan. "They're piece of shit anyway. Got them at a low price," Isabella explained while still cleaning them up. "I doubt the kids would miss them." Once she was done she turned towards him now and walked back up to him but stood in front of him. "Stay, that is all I ask. Not of for sex but for company. Look you weren't nearby before so here's your chance. Want to at least help me finish with the dinner? I have to do roast beef next and so on and so forth and it would be nice for some help. Hey, there could be some animal blood in for you. I know there's some blood left in the meat in the fridge." Pausing she lent out a chuckle before he would have a disgusted look on his face. "I'm kidding. But seriously would you like to help?"